God Is Great

Undoubtedly, I'm an outspoken person. At times, i offend so many peole which i did not realise. My parents are seriously dislike me being that way, i can feel that. Which parent in this world would like their children to be rude on them? Nobody. Anyhow, I'm changing. Actually, most of my friends behaved as I am. They might be more extreme in the way they talk and point out their opinions. My friend even said I'm neutral (which is sort of like a compliment). Guess I'm always rude when talking to a particular person, eg: my parents. Mum is always naggy :p dad, umm, no much thing to complain on him but basically this old man always stop me from revision and need me to help him in using the laptop. He wants to follow the high technology pace so that he will be able to have some topics to chit chat about with his students. aww :)

It's a blessed day today, as God has answered my prayer. I talked to my very best companion about my problems being in my own church. Im losing my passionate over my church. I found that there are so many problems existing in the teens in church which made me feel reluctant to join their activities. I might be finding excuses for myself to not waste time on other activities. However, It's partly because of some of my church mates make me feel uneasy to mix around with them. They talked, played phone and laughed during the church mass. This shouldnt be happening in a sunday morning in church! I always want to go to Blessed church. I will pray for the day to come.

I feel like wanna add more interesting in my blog, and i feel like wana share it to everybody, but i think i've written a lot of of personal stuff which would be better to just keep it invisble from public. Its time to sleep.. would love to take a nag before revision. there will be an addmaths test tomoro. baby, do it will! ;)

Posted by Evelyn at 1:47 AM 0 comments  

"You don't understand. Why aren't you listening to me!" snorted Lily angrily. Simon, feeling confused and hurt answers back, "Why are you so mad? It's just a simple problem. You can ..."

How often has the above scenario happened to you with your other half ? Too often perhaps, so much so that it leads to nothing but a destructive ending.

true.. :)

Posted by Evelyn at 12:17 AM 0 comments  

sigh* i failed to cope with it..
im feeling so disappointed..
God says he will grant me ability to improve everything..
but why..
why am i still that weak..
why can't i just, be the strong one..
i wish i could..

Posted by Evelyn at 11:35 PM 0 comments  

oh God.. Im getting lazier and lazier.. exam will be after Raya.. How on earth am i gonna get straight As with this attitude.. I wished to chat with beh right now.. :( I have a running nose, its because i slept late at 2am.. im so tired...

Posted by Evelyn at 5:25 AM 0 comments  

I've made a study plan, but after finishing it, im here in front of the computer again.. hehe! anyway, today's school was so so fine.. I'm not tired at all.. just that i've period pain.. :) thank God for today. Popo smiled after listened to papa telling bibi's story at hospital. She was asked to see how a mother gives birth. she said she felt so gelik.. "eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....." sth like that.. haha :) at least popo was cheered.. Im very happy.. now my uncle and aunties were no more in kuch.. well well .... :) alright! need to study now! see ya :)

Posted by Evelyn at 1:23 AM 0 comments  

i cried miserably on the day bi went home.. I was totally emotionally not alright these few days which i couldnt deny that.. i argued with my sister over the matter of asking bi's friend to go to church.. they were like teasing me saying that, why mama still don't go to church even if we asked??...i know it is not an easy task to ask somebody to go to church, but at least u should pray for it.. God will turn a bad situation to a good one isnt it.. as long as we believe in Him..

i was so disappointed and totally stressed out.. i cried like there's no tomoro which is so damn miserable.. I kept praying and asking God, What is wrong with me.. yeah.. What is wrong with me.. a feeling of hatred on myself has grown so strong which i couldnt resist it.. sigh*

there was no point for me to cry like hell on the day bi came home.. so i decided to just meet them up, cause i know thy will pujuk their little sister :)

School wasnt that great today, im exhausted.. truly exhausted.. i need energy booster.. popo looks ok today, doctor said she will be able to talk after some time.. pray that she'll be alright..

"whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours" thanks to my two best friends for their support.. :)

Posted by Evelyn at 8:06 AM 0 comments  

i wrote a long passage just now huh.. sorry that i couldnt hold everything inside my heart.. i need somebody to talk to.. i wish tat abi will come home as soon as possible, as she will always listen to me.. i found myself filled with hatred feelings..i'd rather don't get affected by her.. i know its true for what she said.. However, i think i should control my anger.. after all, they just want to make our beloved feel better.. i told beh in church today that, "are u only act like a christian when you're in ACTS church? I don't see you as a christian..." hmm.. if this were told by somebody to me, i will feel extremely down and guilty..

i shouldnt judge her too.. i myself dont act like one too.. yeah its true that our church might not suitable for her, but i really hope my sisters will go to church with me.. feel so lonely to be in church somehow..

i must be better.. from day to day.. kinda worried with my studies.. mock exam will be coming very very soon.. I'm still struggling with all the family problems right now.. God, find me a way to help me make it through.. Grant me wisdom in my studies.. Amen..

Posted by Evelyn at 9:00 PM 0 comments  

popo is seriously ill right now.. she is now staying in the hospital to receive treatment.. On wednesday, she suddenly felt dizzy after came out of the toilet.. gugu realised that she couldnt move her right hand.. However, she didnt inform us cause she thought that popo might just feel a little bit of numbness after receiving chemotherapy.. right until papa came home, he asked po to go and consult doctor.. but popo just stayed silent.. situation was getting weird.. then, papa called my uncle to stay there until he came back again, as there were still 2 students in papa's car..after sending the students, papa came back to popo's house.. That time, my uncle had leaved -.- pa waited for another uncle to come home and they quickly carried popo to the van and sent her to the hospital.. Doctor suspected her to have stroke.. besides, she is infected by the bacteria.. her white blood cell level is so low..

I visited her after my tuition.. i was crying all the way.. i couldnt hold it.. We went to the hospital at 11pm something.. my whole body was shivering as the air conditioner was so strong in the hospital.. we entered the emergency room which is at the red zone.. popo looked so weak.. she wasnt look like the usual her.. i felt so sad.. she was suffering.. i kept praying to God that she'll be alright... she looked at me, i grabbed her hand tightly.. prayed to God that she'll be alright....

I visited her again on friday night.. she had fever but recovered after few hours.. that night, she didnt get to see us as she slept soundly.. my 2th uncle and his family came back to kuch that day...

yesterday..we visited popo again.. She was having a real serious fever.. the weather was burning hot too.. All my uncles and aunties came.. i wished i could do sth but i scared i will be back stabbed by them.. after thy left.. i started to wipe her whole body with towel to lower down her body temperature.. me and beh feed her with milk too by pouring the milk into the tube that is inserted into her stomach by using the syringe.. later.. beh and papa left.. only me and mama stayed there to take care of her.. we helped popo to change pampers as the LOUSY nurse -.- didnt even bother to help us! suan le.. we do it ourselves.. i called abi to ask her how should i do this and tat.. as she is a very pro nurse d :) well.. although it was just a short period of time for me to take care of her, i felt so glad because at least i was able to do something for her..i've succeed in helping her to lower down her body temperature using the nursing skils adn knowledges that i've learnt in st john.. God hears me, AMEN! the weather turns very windy.. i know God is watching.. he is there! :) for those hypocrites..please dont say anythg tat is sarcastic to create chaos..popo is still able to listen and differentiate whats going on.. Dont u hurt her.. God is watching all of us..

my aunty urged my mum to ask bi to come back to kuch... she said.. po might be waiting for bi to come back before she leaves. However, i personally feel that when she comes back to kuch to visit popo, popo will be HEALED, but not leave

Po will be alright.. i talked to her.. she looked into my eyes.. i told her.. po, bibi will come home very soon, u must wait for her.. we, all of us, pray for u all the time.. you will be okay and you will get back to our home.. God will be with you.. tears rolled in her eyes too.. she couldnt speak, yet she couldnt move her right limbs.. i know.. she felt afraid too.. i asked her to pray to God too.. Stay strong.. you will be alright...

after all these.. i realised that papa is such a good son.. thank god that im blessed to have father and mother that behaved well.. God, i prayed to you.. to save my family.. we will make it through together... bi will be coming home later.. thats the time for everything to change.. po, no matter how.. lets follow what God's instruction.. :) no matter how it goes.. you're safe with HIM...

Posted by Evelyn at 7:34 PM 0 comments  

i watched passion of Christ. I couldnt imagine how suffer he is to die for us.. I was greatly touched by His Love.. Non would be like Him.. Jesus, you're so true.. so so true.. U died for us, being crucified.. being persecuted.. I'll keep following you.. Love you, God..

Posted by Evelyn at 2:50 AM 0 comments  

i went to wind cave with my friends and teachers yesterday. We took a lof of pictures. Mama dropped me at 101 to have my breakfast with my fellow friends. We ate LASKA. super duper yummy! i strongly recommend it! later, we went to school by following my uncle's bus. There were 27 of us, combination of 5 Alpha and 4 Beta students guided by 3 teachers, Madam Flowrise, Madam Elizabeth and Mr Chin Chee Leong. First destination, Wind Cave! Here are some of the pictures taken






















in the evening, we went to Faith methodist church for 少年音乐布道晚会. thank God it was a truly meaningful event.. Jac cried after watching Passion of Christ.. i was touched too.. i hold her hands tight, prayed to God that we'll make it through all the hardships :) we sang out loud and praised the Lord.. and the pastor preached powerful speech, we were impressed with her sense of humor too.. :D wonderful feeling flowed and filled inside my heart. I made my promise to God that i will always read bible and pray more. I wanna be a standout christian! :) well done to all my church mates who were involved in this great event, I'm proud of u all :D
WE'RE BLESSED CHILD!







I'm glad that some of my non-christian friends joined us, hope they will know more about God :)













Nice church!

Posted by Evelyn at 1:15 AM 0 comments