another emo day, yet a day to remember
i have some issue with my sister.. thought that i could spend few more months happily with her before she leave.. but she seems to be dont bother about me.. i'm bored... actually she used to be like tat.. but during the past holiday when i were having my exam and she was back in kuching, i felt so great to be with her.. couldn't forget that precious time.. that was the first time for me to feel that we are like real sister! (17 years in my life) cause we used to argue over lil stuff when we were both young..bi says i might think too much, cause thats her behavior, her style..yeah, probably.. but i would say that it was kind of like umm, disappointment.. actually, i was expecting us to have lots of fun during her holidays in kuch, but it was end up like we have nothing to talk about.. Boring.. wish to chit chat more with her before she leave..i did try to play with her, but no much reaction.. lagak lawa saja >:( well, i better focus on my study.. SPM man.. need to study hard..
oh ya, today's topic in church was about what's the role of us all being a CHRISTIAN. well, i've learnt a lot of thing:
1. PRAY for ourselves before u want to change somebody
2. FOLLOW the way guided by God
these are the two main things.. i feel so wrong lately.. there're a lot of stuff messed me up.. i feel that i've change to be so hot-tempered.. i don't know what is up with me.. :( mum keep complaining that im being rude.. i really don't want to shout out loud but those harsh words just came out from my mouth.. how should i prove to them that i'm a good christian? i should pray more, for a good behavior..
what's going on with me.. i'm probably being troubled by studies.. and two of my very best buddies.. I'm in dilemma.. :( i don't wanna hurt anybody.. should have just do something earlier to stop the bad incident from happening. why am i regretting right now.. pointless.. Right now, i should just, focus only on God and my studies.. and yeah, oh yeah... i should not deny my religion. God, you're so so good, hold me tight.. i need your support.
Lord, today i have a great day in church, cause pastor made me realized that I'M THE WAY TO SAVE MY FAMILY. yeah, so i have to behaved well, lets not just relax and expecting help from others to share religious views, because God made me to change your life, mum and dad :) I'm a gift :D
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