God Is Great

my friend doesnt go well with her boy friend lately.. she seek for help expecting me to give her some opinions.. i was like, so stress.. and i was speechless.. i did not even know what to advice her..this is because what she did was totally the same thing tat i've done to him.. i know her feeling so well.. Once we've made the decision to just break up, we will get all the negative consequences.. eg, people will
judge you as the bad ones, who dumps the person that u like.. actually, it wasnt our fault although it looked like we're the one who made up all the problems.. i've affected my studies, neglected my families and ignored about my future life.. i couldn't concentrate on my studies when i was with him, i lied to my parents which i felt so damn bad, and last..I was once living a true fairy tale.. However, never did i realised controversy came while we were fantasized about our future.. i felt so wrong day after day as i know well that this kind of dream will not be realised.. but i couldnt resist him.. he's way too nice which i couldn't afford to hurt him.. at last, i made up my mind for my own sake.. i told him my problem and all the reasons.. but the more i tell, the more difficult for him to get me.. i guess he couldnt even understand what i actually want.. worst was that, he misunderstood me.. :( hmm... we never talk to each other after this.. how sad...

anyway, i told my friend to just leave it to God. If he is not the person that we were expecting, just forget about it.. however, my last advice was.. don't end up the relationship.. it hurts when we meet again.....

Posted by Evelyn at 3:48 AM 0 comments  

Yesterday, my friends and I went swimming.. It was a fascinating time to be with them. we exercised and at the same time have some girls talk. hehe.. but i found out a very unpleasant matter.. which is mainly about him la.. guess he hates me :) he wouldnt understand what i want and what i need.. well, this matter has passed already..

today, i woke up at 7.15am.. prepared myself to church.. but my mum told me dad wasnt at home, he went to look after popo as she has back pain..i guess she was suffering badly.. :( after church, beh went to meet pastor and told him about that.. another uncle came and he said he always put popo in his prayer.. how nice :') then, we prayed together, pray that God will ease her pain.. amen.. we visited her after church, she looked better, quite energetic.. i felt relieved :)

Mummy asked me to cook luncheon meats.. and at the same time she asked beh to fry fish. when the oil spilted, both of us screamed like there's no tomorrow! soooo scary.. now then i realized how hectic it is to be a mother -.- mama said she had used to all these, how great huh :)

i slept for the whole afternoon, so tired.. i gave up to finish my addmaths.. there are still a lot more to go.. so i decided to go shopping with my sister later.. haha! i hope only yinglin will finish it. so tat i wont have to pay more. :p everything was fine today.. :)

oh ya! we've sent the design to the factory :) hope tat we will get a super duper cool class tee. tata!

Posted by Evelyn at 1:23 AM 0 comments  

ADDMATHS ADDMATHS ADDMATHS!! we are going to finish a form 5 addmaths exercise book in one week! oh gosh, thanks to yinglin -.- if we couldnt finish it, yeah, we need to pay RM 10 to everybody as hukuman.. right now everybody is chionging addmaths. hehe :) great weekdays! keep praying for the best :) see ya!

Posted by Evelyn at 6:54 AM 0 comments  

I know i shouldn't be online right at this time.. but i feel so upset upon hearing the matter about my grandma. She's 70 plus years old, and she's having lung cancer (1 year ago), which is a very risky disease... I'm so depressed right now.. the report shown wasnt seem to be good. the doctor said, the cancer cell might be spreading to the bones.. i heard from pa that its a very dangerous stage.. as popo will feel excruciating pain when the cells spread.. Im worried :( popo loves and cares so much about us, her grandchildren.. when we were young, she will always forced us to eat to make sure our stomachs are filled. She bought us new clothes (she has a super good taste which we couldn't deny) and she gave us pocket money too.. how nice :') We lived together right until my family and I moved to our new house. It had been 10 years for me to live together with her. After hearing the bad news, I know I should always be there for her . As i've grown up, i know i should treat this old woman nicely, i know she feels lonely inside cause there is nobody to cheer her up. Happiness shown in her face when bi and beh went home from KL, maybe she's very keen to see us all. We couldn't make it to visit her, cause i'm totally busy with all the school activities and exams.. feel bad for her..

she's just so sayang us :'( i can't hold my tears.. God, i pray that you will heal her painfulness. we will follow every decision you made, hoping that you will do what's best for her.. i know we should always accept the truth that she'll be going to the home tat u provided for her some other day..

she told me, she wished to meet kong kong.. she's going to meet Jesus soon :( po, everything will be alright, as long as we are with God.

Lord, i thank you for getting through all these with her, i will just keep praying... hope you'll be fine




this is my family photo :)

Posted by Evelyn at 4:39 AM 0 comments  

another sunday :) its a rainy day today, feeling just nice. Beh went back to KL for some college stuff..she'll be back after 3 days.. the house is so dead.. lack of noises! today i went for church, intensive class and sri sarjana seminar. indeed a packed day..im feeling not alright for the whole day until i met yunru.. we sat together in the seminar.. and that made me feel better, i mean, turn to be better.. i was feeling so uneasy..i dont feel like explaining it, but, one thing tat i wish to share with u all, that is.. how i wish we could be like the past time..... hmmm.. God, take away all those uneasy feeling.. i wana feel alive once again..

today, when i was in church..i recalled of a lot of the sweet moments when i saw something.. blah blah and i asked myself.. what are u thinking right now? you should just stop.. and i stopped.. :( hmm... whats wrong with me? behaving so weird these few days.. getting lazier to study some more.. ugh.. :(

i read bible story these few days more than i study for my spm.. kinda interesting.. :) 7 more weeks before spm... its getting nearer..but im not fully prepared.. some of my friends are so wun already yet im still playing around dragging my time... now i should just off the comp and get up, study! stop procrastinating!

May God bless the human living in this mother earth :)

Posted by Evelyn at 4:09 AM 0 comments  

i have some issue with my sister.. thought that i could spend few more months happily with her before she leave.. but she seems to be dont bother about me.. i'm bored... actually she used to be like tat.. but during the past holiday when i were having my exam and she was back in kuching, i felt so great to be with her.. couldn't forget that precious time.. that was the first time for me to feel that we are like real sister! (17 years in my life) cause we used to argue over lil stuff when we were both young..bi says i might think too much, cause thats her behavior, her style..yeah, probably.. but i would say that it was kind of like umm, disappointment.. actually, i was expecting us to have lots of fun during her holidays in kuch, but it was end up like we have nothing to talk about.. Boring.. wish to chit chat more with her before she leave..i did try to play with her, but no much reaction.. lagak lawa saja >:( well, i better focus on my study.. SPM man.. need to study hard..

oh ya, today's topic in church was about what's the role of us all being a CHRISTIAN. well, i've learnt a lot of thing:
1. PRAY for ourselves before u want to change somebody
2. FOLLOW the way guided by God

these are the two main things.. i feel so wrong lately.. there're a lot of stuff messed me up.. i feel that i've change to be so hot-tempered.. i don't know what is up with me.. :( mum keep complaining that im being rude.. i really don't want to shout out loud but those harsh words just came out from my mouth.. how should i prove to them that i'm a good christian? i should pray more, for a good behavior..

what's going on with me.. i'm probably being troubled by studies.. and two of my very best buddies.. I'm in dilemma.. :( i don't wanna hurt anybody.. should have just do something earlier to stop the bad incident from happening. why am i regretting right now.. pointless.. Right now, i should just, focus only on God and my studies.. and yeah, oh yeah... i should not deny my religion. God, you're so so good, hold me tight.. i need your support.

Lord, today i have a great day in church, cause pastor made me realized that I'M THE WAY TO SAVE MY FAMILY. yeah, so i have to behaved well, lets not just relax and expecting help from others to share religious views, because God made me to change your life, mum and dad :) I'm a gift :D

Posted by Evelyn at 4:03 AM 0 comments  

I designed this. Simple, simple and simple.. ALPHA! no doubt, that's the name of my class!

Posted by Evelyn at 2:49 AM 0 comments