God Is Great

I'm officially taken :)

Posted by Evelyn at 8:34 PM 0 comments  

Never had I worry so much for my health. Ever since I'm back after matric, I always feel pain at my back. Okay, Maybe I watched too much movies and sit in front of the laptop for long hours which cause me backache. But I seriously still feel uncomfortable and it has been last for a month! Sigh. I dont know what's wrong. I really wish this pain will be gone when I enter uni. I pray to Lord to heal me and cleanse me. Take away my back pain. :( please...

Posted by Evelyn at 12:08 AM 0 comments  

Attended "journey to intimacy" course. And I've realized I'm desired for motherly love so much :( mama is the person I care the most at home. Throughout the lesson, when pastor asked to imagine someone u love and somebody that is important, I could only think of mama for most of the time :( I love her so much that I wan her to have eternal life. Of course I want everyone of my family to believe and accept Christ. Today I argued with mum bout religion. I guess that was fine. At least she knows some truth. Later, I told an aunty, Jenny Lau about my problem. I complained that I always love to share my problems with mama, and I wish to get attention and care from her. However, she just won't listen and show some care that I need for most of the time. I know that I shouldn't expect her to be the "mother" that I always imagine about. I just need her to listen, advice, comfort, encourage or even hug me when i'm upset. I cried when aunty told me she always listen to what her daughter shares about, and she often hugs and hold their hands :') I cried cause I think that was what I needed the most when I'm depressed. I'm not a tough girl if you know me well. Mum, it's not that if I'm a Christian, I've no hardships in my life. It's not that I can settle all things by my own. Hod promised he'll help me put through, yes! But it doesn't mean I don't need somebody! Those person who pull me up and gave me courage are the guardian angels god sent to me :( mum I'm not a perfect girl, I have fragile heart. I need you so much. I really hope you can understand :( and I really hope I can change to be a better daughter. I love you mum :(

Posted by Evelyn at 8:16 AM 0 comments  

Pheww, lately, somebody has talked about blog! Yeah, somebody. That's why I came to realized I've been ignoring you for quite a while, so sorry bloggie :( things are getting interesting recently. I can't say much if I'm doing the right thing. It goes like this:
After matric, I came back home. And decided to go to adult youth. The biggest obstacles ahead of me was non other than him. My first boy. It was quite awkward to see him and I felt quite upset bout it. So I decided to fb msg him, just to apologize. Thanks to bibi, she even taught me how to make him forgive me but not hating me :) so days after days, we've became like buddy. Well, lately, I went out with him. And it felt so great. But I've been worrying so much about my own feeling :( I don't wana repeat my silly mistakes again and being in a relationship is a no joke stuff. Once you're into it, you must be serious with it! But u guess I'm just not ready. I admit, he's my first love and we all hardly able to forget the first love isn't not. I don't know bout him but for me, yes it is. He's like the someone very important in my life. How could I forget about him even if I'm married someday. Once, I thought we'll never talk to each other anymore, but I prayed for it, I wish we would at least greet or talk a little when we meet. And ya know, god has given me more than that. Now we are so friend, and there is actually addition of some sweetness :) but I'm freaked out. Yes I like him, but I've no confident to handle this. I don't know if I really like him :( confused, eh? Sigh! I hope god will just show me what to do, and I'd better control myself from falling too deep. That's all for today, nights :)

Posted by Evelyn at 7:59 AM 0 comments