nobody said it was easy.. no one ever said it would be this hard..
sigh.. I argued with him, again.. this time i got so heartbroken.. I'm scared of quarreling and i'm freaked out when he got so depressed and upset.. it felt like last time :'( God.. where are You? :( i want to walk with him in the presence of You.. but Lord, teach me how am i suppose to do that.. i don't want to hurt him but I've hurt him for thousand of times.. i scolded him so badly when he did something wrong without considering about how a man feels about this.. will it be shameful? i don't know.. Lord.. I was pissed.. so pissed that i can't be myself, i can't do whatever i like, i'm afraid to be controlled and i hate the feeling of barely able to breathe.. :( i know we love each other so much but somehow arguments just separate us apart.. we tend to forget our promises when we argue.. he is my boy, and he loves me more than anything.. i don't know why i just can't love him more than he loves me.. maybe my method is different? i love him as well, he is such a nice guy.. i just don't like arguments.. who would, right? sigh.. Lord.. heal us.. fix our broken bonds again.. i surrender everything unto You.. :(
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