God Is Great

"Evelyn jong.. what are you thinking..? Hmm.."

Okay no emo.. Today is supposed to be a great day to celebrate!

Today I experienced God's guidance! I wanted to go to youth revival camp just during the short holiday next week. But there are a lot of things stopping me..
First, my proposal
Second, my proposal presentation on the next day after camp which comprise 35 percent of my semester marks.
Third, financial
Forth, I have CLC vision night on Sunday night.

But I deeply know that it's a camp that I shouldn't miss.
By faith, I said yes to go. I will go. I wrote letter to HRC and my lecturer to apply for leave on Monday as HRC is not having holiday on that day. I've informed both the head of department and my own lecturer about this. So wanted to give lecturer the letter, but right before I took out the letter, lecturer say, I've news for you all. You're given holiday on Friday, so no need replace! What a good news! It simply means I can go back to kuching or do my research on time! Yayy

Second, I prepared my proposal day and night for one week. Sit until my back and buttock pain. I feel like time is lacking. But I do it with the best that I can. Some more, I have case presentation in hospital this coming Wednesday. A lot of stress. Some more, I need to spare time to challenge junior with vision casting. Too many things to do in a short time. Really exhausted. Dr leo wanted to see the proposal on Monday, which is today. I literally pushed myself to the limit to get it done! And I sent it at 11.46am according to dr dzalani. Haha. At least I've done it! Yayyyyyy!

Third! I am so happy cause my pre proposal presentation went well, I mean it's out of my expectation cause i thought I will do badly! I made dr leo annoyed last week.. Cause I was really nervous, I didn't come out with my proposal when others have done it. So I was really no mood and scared. I didn't want to let him know too. So that day, everything was just not so right. Today, I didn't expect much bout my presentation. Cause I focus on proposal only. But thank God. God is good! I got positive feedbacks and it helps me in understanding more. I once again build up my confidence.

I am really happy you know.
I just wanna share this happiness..
God is really great.
When I really have faith in Him, He shows me the way :)

I only have 60 ringgit left for this month. I don wanna let papa mama worry. I just hope I will be financially stable until Jpa masuk duit. :)
no worries, cause God is good, all the time!

Posted by Evelyn at 8:00 AM 0 comments  

there is so much things i want to tell you. But a lot of things are better left unsaid. If you think that a lot of things are changing, it will change. Whatever you think decide how the situation will be like. All i ever wanted was the true you, true me and true smile. cause your smile means so much to me. like i said before, i don't know how much you treasure me, like how i treasure about you. Sometimes i went away cause i feel that you hated me. i wish i have the purest heart, to see the bright side of the world. I wish i will never need to worry so much, i wish we could just laugh for the whole day. after all, i guess i am just not the right one.. yeah maybe

Posted by Evelyn at 6:34 AM 0 comments  

Sad.. I've reached KL. It's time to go back to reality. One month passed so fast isn't it :( still remember the first day I reached penang airport and take bus to komtar and take 102 bus to burmah road. Auntie's house is just the first stopping station for bus. Got into the house and chaiyen was already there. I packed bag and we went to eat laksa at lorong baru. We went to GAMA buy toothpaste, shampoo, milo and biscuits. Yee ern only reached at midnight. Second day, we went to the HR to hand in the documents required. We stepped into 7th floor in LGL and saw kenny and mr chew. I was wondering who is this student, from where? We looked into the organisational board trying to find who is the HOD. We thought the assistant ah seng is Miss ooi. Lol. So much difference after familiar with all of them. I was in the gym with yee ern on the first day. Miss hang was busy treating patients and we introduced ourselves using English. After speaking English for a while, I asked, actually can we communicate in mandarin. She answered me in mandarin, aiyo jiang hua yu laaa! Lol! We were quite awkward being there. We didn't know what to do and where to go. Cy was alone outside with miss wong. Haha.. in the afternoon, we went to the cafe and saw a ukm senior. Had our first lunch at the cafeteria. I forgot how did we spend our time in gym. But first day is always weird. I told myself, we will get used to it someday. Anyway, after work, before going home, I remember Matthew, naven came in the gym. Matthew introduced himself, He is the ot senior. Then mr chew and Matthew dou zui. It was funny. Didn't really know them that well though. Days after days, we became so friend and I began to open up my heart to play with people in gym. Thanks to mr chew actually. He lo, keep talking crap and funny jokes. Kacau here and there. So annoying. Haha. The first question kenny asked yee ern and I was, why would people hold the cane at the affected side. I haven't search for the answer. Even till now. Haha. Sorry kenny. We slowly learn that he is actually a diploma holder in aimst university. Because of the lacking of vacancy, temporarily he is the assistant in this department. I would say, I really Wana thank him for being there with us throughout the posting. Sometimes when I Don understand sth, I would ask him, then he will discuss with me. And he will always ask me questions to stimulate my critical thinking.. this is one of the good memories in gym. I love little discussion. It makes everyday challenging. He's a very clever guy I would say. Really look up to him. Plus, He is same age as us! Thanks kenny for your last day advice. I will take it and improve better. You let us see a different point of view. And thanks for helping me to check my presentation slides for two times. Your advice are precious. Back to the topic, just wana say, a lot of memories start from the gym. It's because of gym, we started to look at Matthew's shoulder problem and do some exercise. It's because of gym, we started the core strengthening exercise, get to know naven more. Before this when I saw him, I jus passed by like that. After that core training at gym, we started to greet each other. But guess it's too late cause we only had two weeks left to know more about each other. But I treasure these moments anyway. I learn that how's life will be when you're already a working adult. Somehow I regret that we didn't grab the opportunity to eat with different therapists. Hmm nvm la :) anyway, we said goodbye to auntie today. I'm sad to leave her alone. She was shocked that we are leaving today. I told her earlier before already lo. :( she sent us to komtar and gave me 50 cents to naik bus. I told her I will come back to Penang and pay her the 50 cents I owed her. Haha.. pls take care auntie. Thanks for greeting us every morning and when going back home. Thanks for making me happy. I guess, you will be lonely without us in the house. Hope you get use to it fast :(
So, that sums up my third year posting in Penang. Thank god for everything. :)

Posted by Evelyn at 10:09 PM 0 comments  

I thought that I will spend my Sunday morning doing presentation then naven asked us out to eat at pulau tikus! Yayy. So happy :D so we went out and talked a lot. Teh tarik ice is teh ice. Teh tarik ice, no such thing. Lol. After hearing his sharing, suddenly admire him so much. I'm Blessed to know this friend. Yee ern went back to perlis. So only cy and i went out with him. Then I went to church with vern. Her bro was practicing praise and worship and holy spirit touched our heart that we cried. I told Vern it's holy spirit working in our heart but guess she will be thinking I'm talking crap. Hahaha anyway, doesn't matter. She was just touched to see her bro singing up there. It's normal to cry in church I told her. I really had a great time praising God, thanking him about how much my life has changed. I thank him for people I've met in life. And most of all, I thank him for my three weeks in Penang. It's really wonderful being here. Thanks Lord for loving me. Hee. :') went out with church bro and sis. It was a great night out cause we played game in the bistro. Took Many photos with gee gee :P came back home and Wana do my presentation, but end up chit chatting with cy till 330am in the morning! What is this? Lol. But I Don see it as a waste of time. Oh ya. I cried during church telling Vern that cy said she is not coming back to Malaysia anymore after working in sg. I cried cause I guess, after graduating, I won't be able to see these bunch of great friends. I guess quality time spent talking to each other is more precious than doing my case presentation ba. It's the last posting for 3rd year. I should appreciate deep conversation like this. Cause, when will I get the chance? :')
Anyway, thanks to you Lord. I'm really happy and feel blessed everyday. I love my coursemates and I treasure everybody. May peace and joy be with them till forever and ever ::)

Posted by Evelyn at 12:55 PM 0 comments  

Dear Lord.
Just want to pray for my xxxx.
Lord you know that her life has changed. She knows that she will never be the same. No longer the happy child, who is always positive for everything. Lord you see her sorrow and her pain. You know all about her and her problem. Even though she doesn't need any help from you, but Lord, continue to pour your mercy, blessing, love and joy in her life. Shower her with your love. Let her cry out her problem and throw all the bitterness, hatred, hurt feeling accumulated since years ago. Lord, I really hope she can go back to your side once again. Cause she is weak, she needs strength. And you're strength. Lord. Just Wana pray that she will surrender her life to you. Stop settling things by her own. She is exhausted with life. No matter how hard she tries looking for ways to entertain herself, she knows that it is only temporary pleasure. Lord, pour and fill your holy spirit in her life. May all the burden, chains and bondages be broken in the name of the Lord. Cast away all her worries and pain. Lord. For you are the Healer, you are the way, the truth and the life. Come back to you Lord.. Come back to you.. rest in your presence.
In Jesus name I pray, amen.

Posted by Evelyn at 11:19 AM 0 comments  

Today, one of the physiotherapists that I adore so much asked:
"Did you pray every morning before coming for posting?"
"Sometimes yes. Sometimes not." I answered.
"I pray every morning that I will surrender everything I do into God's hand. When I do that, everything seems to be smooth sailing. You need to pray to commit your work to the Lord."

I nodded and smiled.
I was motivated.
She is right.
I always enjoy the 20-30 minutes walk from house in Penang to the hospital, of course without rushing. Cause I get to spend my quality time with God.
I do not know how can my life be a blessing to people, but God is able. I do not dream big, I am not burden to lead a successful life. I just wana faithfully serve people around me just like how God wants me to love and humbly serving those in need of help.
People told me to dream big for future. Chance is always once in a lifetime. Yeah. I struggled. I was confused. But tonight I have a sudden thought in mind. Why not dream big for God? All I felt was peace and joy. I'm not sure about my future. But, He will lead the way.
So much thought after a deep conversation tonight.
#thoughtoftheday

Posted by Evelyn at 11:04 AM 0 comments  

"How much do you treasure me as a friend?"

Posted by Evelyn at 7:48 AM 0 comments